BBDW 66 [Black Butterfly] - Nevereverland
Section 69, 70 & 71 (UNEDITED)
Bang. The
door closed with a little more weary sound than usual. Entering the house
without turning on the light, Jude flopped down on the sofa, puffing out a long
breath. The cell phone he threw out of his pocket was already pointing to near
midnight. He felt nauseated like he was drunk without actually drinking. Jude,
who briefly laid his hand on the tumultuous stomach, raised one hand to cover
his eyes.
Woong. Wooong. The cell phone vibrated and moved little by little. Jude's
shoulders flinched and jumped at the sudden sound that tears the air in the
quiet room. The phone he glanced under his hand didn't come up with the name of
the person he knew. Jude closed his mouth and looked at the broken clock on the
wall. The dry, crooked sound of the second hand and the sound of the cell phone
were strangely overlapping, stimulating his nerves. Jude's silent green gaze
turned to the little piledriver on the table. It was a phone call that had been
buzzing at a similar time these past few days. Jude picked up the phone
quickly. The shining cell phone in the dark stung his vision too brightly.
"Hello."
[Finally, you’re taking it.]
It was a familiar voice. His change of
cheerful to subdued tone was very subtle.
[Are you feeling better now? If you don't
accept it by today, I was thinking of visiting you.]
"No, nothing has improved at all."
[But you accepted it. Can I be happy about
that?]
"Not really. Just, avoiding you
doesn't seem to make it disappear."
[If I ask you what it is, will you tell me?]
Jude's voice had no ups and downs. The usual
absent-minded and laughterless voice rang low in the room like achromatic
asphalt.
"Something's going wrong. Almost like
only dead fishes are floating on the surface. I'm not sure what it is. But I know
I've come some way I can't come back to some extent. I don't know anything
specific enough to answer. I wonder if I'll answer even if I know. What's
certain is that it's not very good."
Listening to the silence over the cell
phone, Jude sat upright. Even in the dark, the shabby wallpaper of the
apartment where he had lived for years was clearly visible. His voice was back to
usual in a moment.
"You, just in case, do you know
everything about my past?"
[No way, I didn't go that far. I can't deny
that I want to try it, but I think I'll be hated if I did it without
permission. It's a mystery box that I couldn’t figure out yet, so if you're
going to solve it, I'd better be with you. I think that part will be fun too.]
"Why would I do that with you? You have a weird imagination."
Alvin laughed briefly. It was a laugh he
hadn't heard in a long time, and Jude shrank slightly uncomfortably. He wasn't
sleepy, but the inside of his eyes was hot and a little drowsy. I wonder if
I have a fever. Alvin's voice was just calm.
[Do you want to know?]
"I don't want to know."
[Is that so?]
The voice didn't even seem like it was regretting.
-But it keeps popping out. And the volume is inflating inside him. Jude, who prized
his words, pressed his brow with a long breath.
[Are you tired?]
"Yeah, I'm very tired. I went through
the trash to catch a man with a personality disorder. I'm going to sleep now,
so hang up."
[Yeah. I'll see you soon. Go to bed.]
"Sounds ugly. I'm hanging up."
Jude, who closed the phone without regret,
soon lay down on the sofa for a long time. The appearance of the old couple had
already faded from his mind. What emerged as a clearer outline than that was
the face of his partner who he had just parted with. A genuinely worried face,
a look that would drag him to the hospital if he kept acting like this. Jude's
eyes turned downward. His eyes sank deeply.
“How come, to a guy like me...”
Somehow, he got caught by a guy like me. He
remembered what he said like a joke. It wasn't actually a joke. Jude had a
stiff smile. He was a good person. A good partner and a good friend. It was the
axis of relationships that everyone would envy.
"Huh..."
He wanted to drink beer. But the
refrigerator was empty. Shaking his head, Jude soon stood up and approached the
old used radio. As Jude rummaged through the disorderly stack of cassette tapes
next to him, he soon pulled one of them out and inserted it into the radio.
After a while, a clearer sound than he thought came out of the old radio. It
was the song that Roman Stanberg used when he proposed.
If I were a
minstrel I'd sing you six love songs,
To tell the whole world of the love that we share,
If I were a merchant I'd bring you six diamonds,
With six blood red roses for my love to wear,
But I am a simple
man, a poor common farmer,
So take my six ribbons to tie back your hair,
Yellow and brown, blue as the sky,
Red as my blood, green as your eyes,
If I were a
nobleman I'd bring you six carriages,
With six snow-white horses to take you anywhere,
If I were the emperor I'd build you six palaces,
With six hundred servants for comforting fare,
But I am a simple
man, a poor common farmer,
So take my six ribbons to tie back your hair,
If I were a
minstrel I'd sing you six love songs,
To tell the whole world of the love that we share,
So be not afraid my love, you're never alone love,
While you wear my ribbons tying back your hair,
Once I was a simple
man, a poor common farmer,
I gave you six ribbons to tie back your hair,
Too-ra-lee, too-ra-lie, all I can share,
Is only six ribbons to tie back your hair,
Too-ra-lee, too-ra-lie, all I can share,
I gave you six ribbons to tie back your hair.
All I can give you is
six ribbons. No six palaces, six hundred servants, six diamonds and roses, six
carriages, six dazzling horses, but six shabby ribbons. Just a ribbon to tie
your hair. Jude, who mumbled the lyrics, soon lay down on the sofa and fell
asleep. The night breeze was blowing hard outside.
* *
*
The babbling of children playing house filled his ears. The attic where nobody was there. Stiff fur and thick-tailed rats were popping in and out of the cracks in the wall. I miss mom. Shut up, don't talk about it. Okay, I'm sorry. I don't want him to come in today. Fool, what are we going to do about our meal? Is it rice that he gives us? Even if he gives it to a dog, he won't give it to us. Kik, that is kind of true. I wish I could hit him but I couldn’t. You're right because you're weak. Call me in that case. All we're doing is self-defence, okay, Toby……
The sunlight that came in briefly in the
morning poked his eyes. Jude opens his eyes. The cell phone was buzzing like crazy
on the table next to the sofa. Looking briefly at the ceiling with half-open
eyes, Jude fumbled and reached out to pick up the phone. His voice was a little
hoarse, perhaps because of sleepiness.
"Hello."
[Jude? Where are you now?]
Suddenly, an urgent voice broke out. It was
the familiar partner's voice, and Jude wondered. Jude rubbed his tired eyes,
wondering if there was another emergency. I don't remember sleeping well like
a baby these days, but I can't believe I have to run out this early in the
morning.
"Where am I, home. What's wrong with
you?"
[What do you mean, what’s wrong? You didn't
come out even after a long time to work, and you didn't answer the phone, what
were you doing?]
"What do you mean, what time is
it?"
[It's 11 o'clock, 11 o'clock! What were you
doing? You're making me worry!]
Eleven o'clock? The cell phone clock was
really past eleven. Jude was briefly perplexed. It's weird. I always set the
alarm. No, I used to wake up in the morning before the alarm went off. Jude
jumped up from his lying position and immediately smacked all over his body and
groaned briefly in a passing dull pain. His body ached as if he had been hit by
several baseballs at the batting practice field. Tim over the cell phone asked in
bewilderment.
[What? What's wrong? You're not feeling
well?]
"No, I'm fine... sorry, I overslept.
Maybe it's because I slept soundly after a long time, that I didn't even hear
the alarm. Sorry, I'll be out now."
[Yeah, okay. Are you sure you're all right?]
"Yes. I'll be right there, see you at
the station."
After the phone call, Jude froze on the
sofa with a stunned face. He couldn't understand the situation at all. Last
night, he definitely went to bed as usual. He just took off his jacket and used
a faded cushion as a pillow, on an old sofa that he loves more than his bed.
Then why is he wearing his jacket now, and why is the jacket dirty?
Furthermore, the bloodstains on the jacket did not make his situation look any better.
Why do I feel so sick? Holding onto his forehead for a moment, Jude took
off his jacket and rolled up his shirt.
There were several bruises on the upper
body, which were blue and some are red as if he had a fight with someone. Why
on earth? I wondered if I fell down while sleeping on the sofa, but no
matter how splendidly I rolled from the sofa, there wouldn't be such round
bruises everywhere like this. Jude shook his confused head vigorously. The
voice that came out was flatter than his confused head.
"What the hell is going on? Let me
think..."
Looking back on his memories, he couldn't
think of anything. The blond detective frayed his hair irritably. The most
moderate imagination was the assumption that he jumped out of his sofa last
night, sleepwalking around the house wearing his jacket and bumped into a table
or something.
But the assumption is only an assumption; Jude
slowly gets away from the sofa with a slightly dismayed face. Fortunately, the face
in the mirror was fine as he scuttled to the bathroom. Jude grabbed the sink
for a moment and cleared his head. It was rare for Jude to do something frantically,
but now he’s desperately trying to remember something. But after a while, Jude
had no choice but to open his eyes, only to remind himself that all efforts did
not come at a fair price.
"...there's nothing I can do."
It actually was. He couldn't think of
anything, so there was no action he could take. He didn't want to go to the
hospital without knowing what was going on. He could have done something troublesome
that might have a backlash, but what can he do when it's not even in his
memory. It was a surprisingly calm arrangement for himself. Jude, who concluded
plainly, took off his jacket for now.
"Let's go to work, then."
He wasn't very happy to see his body creak
here and there, but he had to get out working anyway. I wonder if Tim will
catch something. Mumbling anxiously once inside, Jude began to pat his body
and get ready to go out.
*
* *
"-Tim!"
When he raised his hand leisurely and greeted
him, Tim that was holding the gun from the other side ran to Jude. His face was
filled with anxiety and embarrassment.
"Jude, what’s going on? Are you sure
you're just sleeping in?"
"Yeah, well, it happens sometimes.
It's been so long since I slept soundly. I'm sorry. The Chief’s going to get
mad again."
Tim, who was looking at Jude smiling and
shrugging his shoulders, soon smiled. He looked like a nursery teacher facing
the problem child he always had.
"We won't have time to be lectured by
the Chief. I just got a case filed, and it's in Harlem. Let's get the gun and
get out of here. Before we run into the Chief."
"Harlem? What's the matter, a quarrel
between thugs, or-"
"Someone found a dead child. It was in
the trash can, but it seems to have been left for a few days. I just got a
report, let's go out and check the details."
"Ah? Why is there a kid out of
nowhere?"
"I don't know if it's about child
trafficking, or if it's about kidnapping...damn, I don't know why they're dragging
a child into this."
Tim gave him a few slaps on the back,
telling him to get ready and come out. Trying to ignore the pain that shook his
body, Jude raised one hand to answer. The bruises were said to be getting more
painful over time, and since he woke up in the morning, even moving some limbs makes it throbbing more and more. Still, it's better than having to explain to Tim. Jude
sighed a little and turned around.
* * *
Hmmmm... How did Jude get those bruises? It's more mystery time again!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the update.
(≧∇≦)/ It's a mystery indeed. You're welcome.
DeleteI am calm I am calm I am calm I am calm I am calm π’ WHAT'S HAPPENING??? BLOOOD?? BRUISESSS? how did that happen who did This to my Jude? π‘
ReplyDeleteThank you ❤️π―
γ½(O_O )οΎ Yes be calm. It's not the time to panic yet. And you're welcome.
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